Habits deeply rooted in our bodies
Can stop even a sincere intention,
We swerve off perfectly straight roads
And take detours around redemption.
We desire good, but cannot do it
For the power and order we lack,
In our mind we hope for a dismount
But crazy evil keeps riding our back!
Procrastination subtly slips inside
And convinces us tomorrow will do,
Whispers, don't you be in any hurry,
Have a little more self-indulge brew!
Temporary reprieve comes in bargaining
While necessary change is put on hold,
Waiting, we put at risk our soul survival
Since our death date just isn't told.
Changes are often hard to make in our lives. We find enjoyment in certain habits that are detrimental to us. Even the apostle Paul recognized the fact that our conscious intentions determine our direction. They are our way of aiming for what matters in life. Paul says in (Romans 7:15-19) "I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate to do... For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do — this I keep on doing." Paul wasn't any different from us. We have good intentions, but deeply rooted habits can prevent us from carrying out those good intentions. Habits done over many years are hard to break. We like our bad habits and we don't want to give them up. We procrastinate and allow our evil side to convince us that we can wait a little longer to change. There's no need to give up our self-indulgences right away. We have plenty of time in the future to change. Of course, that's a lie, especially since we cannot predict the time of our death. Perhaps you have tried changing and find you lack the power and order to change. You won't be able to change overnight, but when you are determined to change, then God and others will help you. Should you fail at first, don't give up. Keep trying, and eventually you will conquer those bad habits that have a hold on you.
Sheila Wells Hughes, November 6, 2009, # 545